Home is Where the Heart Is

Dictionary.com defines home as:

1.     a house, apartment, or other shelter that is the usual residence of a person, family, or household.

2.     the place in which one's domestic affections are centered.

3.     an institution for the homeless, sick, etc.: a nursing home.

4.     the dwelling place or retreat of an animal.

5.     the place or region where something is native or most common.

UrbanDictionary defines home as:

A word that means something different to each person who uses it. A person's home can be the place where they live, the place they grew up, or the place where the people they care about live. In the case of some people, home is a variable concept, changing dependant on the placement of another person or object, or a person may even consider his or her own body the only 'true' home.

or...

That person against whom you can rest your head and your heart and everything feels safe; the place where you are not alone.  The place where you are not alone. (yes, I intentionally repeated that)

Just some things I was thinking about.

Change.

I was writing a different post, but then was inspired to write this, and was looking up quotes about how people change (I like quotes, quotes are good).  I came across one that read "Theres no such thing as people changing, you only get to know them better."  I do not believe this too be true.  I've changed a lot in the last year, as I'm sure a lot of people have noticed.  I don't think change is bad, but its hard.

People don't expect you to change.  They expect you to stay exactly how they remember you, how they think they know you.  You get caught, trapped in being someone who you aren't anymore, someone who you used to be.  Sometimes you want to change, but you feel like you will lose people because they don't understand.  You've let yourself become defined as someone, and no one wants to let that definition change.  You aren't even sure if you CAN change it.

Or you change and people think something is wrong.  I used to be really talkitive, hyper, energetic.  Now I talk less.  Its not that I'm always sad, or down, or thinking really hard about some overwhelming obstacle in my life.  Sometimes, I'm sure that is a reason.  Sometimes, I'm just in a bad mood.  A lot of the time, I honestly just don't have anything to say.  I don't mind sitting and listening to other people talk (unless its morning, I'm still not a morning conversationalist).  Yet people assume that if I'm not talking or acting in an outgoing manner (I'm sure theres a word for that...I'm trying to get around using the word obnoxious because thats not quite what I'm looking for...) that there is something wrong with me.  Some assume, others ask.  I usually tell them I'm fine, and a lot of the time, I am.

Sometimes, people really are just fine.  A lot of people will ask, and they get the answer of "I'm fine" so they either ask again, or they just nod but don't believe it.  Which is okay, because sometimes people aren't fine.  But if they don't want to talk about it, its okay.  Maybe they just don't want to talk to YOU about it, or they aren't ready to.

Another quote for you, since I've been looking at them on and off while writing this.

 "I don't know that love changes.  People change.  Circumstances change."

How do you respond to the face in the mirror?

James 1:22-25

[22] But be doers of the word, and not hearers only, decieving yourselves. [23] For if anyone is a hearer of the word and not a doer, he is like a man who looks intently at his natural face in a mirror. [24] For he looks at himself and goes away and at once forgets what he was like. [25] But the one who looks into the perfect law, the law of liberty, and perseveres, being no hearer who forgets but a doer who acts, he will be blessed in his doing.

Acknoweledgements

Dear people of Walmart, thank you for hours of entertainment.  Little boy not watching where you are going, there is a wall there.  Old lady with the scarf around your face, no I dont have a club card and no I cant smell the pig farms today.  Old man from the bus, yes I was here yesterday, and last week, and at copps.  Person that talked to me last week and I dont remember, of course I sleep here.  Random teenager, I'm glad I am not the only one who sings "If I only had a brain".  Old man, please, PLEASE pull up you pants!!!  Little child, am I really that scary???  Embarrassed son, dont worry, your Dad is just being funny and trying to embarras you, he doesnt really want to take me home.  Creepy man at Copps, I do not believe you are twenty, and do not want to be friends or anything else.  Woman stalking by, I apologize if my smile offended you.  Everyone: hello, merry christmas, no its not too cold, yes I am freezing, thank you, have a nice night.

zero to six-million billion star rating system

Because I have this bad habit of wasting my money watching movies in the theater instead of being patient and waiting for them to come out on DVD, I decided to come up with my own rating system.

Zero Stars:  I wish I hadn't seen it.  My life would be so much better could I go back in time and un-see it.  If it is suggested even on DVD, I would rather go sit in the other room and not watch it.

One Star: I regret paying to see it.  I'd watch it on DVD, but it was a waste of nine bucks in the theater. I would'nt even go watch it again if someone else paid for it.

Two Stars:  Should have just waited for the DVD.  I'd watch it again after like six months, not in the theater though.

Three Stars:  It was okay, I guess.  I'd see it again if someone else paid for it, but definately not the same weekend or anything.

Four Stars:  Liked it, it was good, glad I went.  I'd let someone else pay for me to see it, maybe even the next night.

Five Stars:  Awesome.  Loved it.  I'd pay to see it twice.

Six-million Billion Stars:  Best Movie EVER.  I'd pay to see it like three times, or twice in one day!  I'll buy it as soon as its on DVD!!!!!!

I have the power of the cheese

Conversations often go off on rabbit trails. You can go from Fishing to Lakes to Swimming to Sunburn to Bugspray to Spiders, etc.  Sometimes you can find your own rabbit trails.  This is the Wikipedia game.  You start with thinking of a page you have to get to.  Mine will be "Spades" since that's what game is being played right now.  You have to start by clicking "Random Article" and get to "spades" by only clicking on links.  I'll record my rabbit trail for you.

Random Article
Rebecca Alpert
U.S.A.
Yards
Golf
Golf (disambiguation)
Golf (card game)
Spades

Conversations are similar.  It keeps the conversations interesting, but a rabbit trail isn't always a good thing.  It can be very distracting, and I for one am very prone for forgetting what I'm supposed to be talking about.  I do it in my blogs too.  The other day I randomly remembered my netflix, and was supposed to fix it.  I didn't fix for a few days still because I forgot again.  But don't worry, its in the mail and on its way to Madison.  See, there was another Rabbit Trail!!  I wonder who came up with the term rabbit trail.  Some hunter who was tracking a different animal trail and kept coming upon rabbit trails and they got him so lost he didn't know where he had started and just kept finding more and more rabbit trails??!!!  Probably not. But its a theory.  Speaking of which, I think my dad and grandpa got lost today in the woods.  Surprise, surprise.  Can't send them anywhere by themselves, can we?  Guess I'll let you know where they ended up,if they ever return to tell the tale!
By the way, did know that this document has 300ish words in it? How Neat is That?!

FREE stuff for YOU!!

Since I returned from the wonderful world of Lake Ellen last Tuesday (the 16th I think it was..), I have yet to spend a full day at home.  While this is good in the sense that I'm keeping busy, it would be nice to have a day where I don't have to be going somewhere or coming home from somewhere.  Unless its camp, I'll go to camp any day.  So long as I never have to come back, that is.  Well, maybe to visit.  But anyways, its been busy.  I've spent the last few days at Trout Lake, near Minocqua WI, camping with family and friends.  Its always fun- georgeous sunsets, campfires, walks to the beach to stargaze, and of course lots of laughs and games and great food.

Now that I'm home, I'm gonna have to figure out an attack plan on how to see all the people I haven't seen since May or June.  At least I can accomplish a few at church tomorrow.  I haven't been to church in over a month, which I know, its absurd.  And I haven't been to MY church since May!  Or Youth Group, which has changed names apparently?  Still don't know what I'm going to do about that- not the name change part, the going to youth group part.  They are having it twice a week, so not only will I have to pick a day, I'll have to make it fit into my schedule and probably have to pay for gas (bleh!).  Gas is gross.  Oh well.

Oh hey, did I mention we have kittens? Four of them, super cute.  Two tabby, one tabby with white feet, and one really cool tabby and black and white one.  Hope they all make it.  They are super popular, so if you order one now, I'll give you a deal and you can have it twice as free than if you order when they are ready to go!  CRAZY DEAL RIGHT!?!?!?!  This offer won't last long, so be the first in your home to get one!  They're cute!  They're tiny!  They're what every home needs!

Peter the Purple People-Eater

HIP HIP HOORAY!!!!!  Today, I finally finally FINALLY got my liscense!!!  First try, no fails on my record, WOOT WOOT!!!!!  I also got a Debit Card, which is supposed to come in the mail within a week.  Oh, random side fact of information that is interesting but unimportant:  someone blew up my mailbox.  Yep, stuck firecrackers in it on the 4th of July and KAPOWWWW blew it up.  Along with my netflix disk which I totally forgot I'm supposed to be on their site telling them about it, thanks for reminding me!  Back to previous conversation...topic...stuff.  Along with liscense and Debit Card, I am also in charge of carrying around a cellphone (I know, oh the responsibility) which does not have texting YET but soon will.   AND to add to the list of fortunate events, I will be buying our car.
Our car, MY car, is a seven, almost eight year old plum colored Impala.  I have decided to name him Peter, the Purple People-Eater.  Most peaople (notice I spelt People wrong, cuz I keep trying to spell in peAople, and decided to leave it and then mention it here) hear that and say "wait, its purple, doesn't that make it a girl?" but no it doesn't, because puprle is a royal color, and girls are crabby.
Okay, I'm nearly falling alseep as I right this.  Not cuz its boring.  Just cuz I'm super tired.  I don't know why, maybe because I didn't sleep well and had to get up  at eight today.  Who knows.  Either way, this is the end.  There is no more.  Zilch.  Nada. None.  Nil. Nix. Bye.

LEC week one

So its been a very long time since my last post.  SORRY!  I didn't mean for that, it just happened.  My Dad canceled our internet, so then I had to wait til I was at camp to use internet, and now that I'm at camp there wasn't any computers I could with internet.  I  am actually using Mary's laptop in the office right now.

so lots has happened.   TJ had his grad party, and hasn't left for San Diego yet.  And of course I'm at camp!!! It took a little skill to get all of our stuff into Becca's car, but it did all fit eventually.  I naturally forgot a lot of stuff...like my hairbrush.  I had to buy a new one.  There was also a belt that I had planned to wear but ended up wearing shorts instead so I forgot that, which isn't terrible because I have seven other belts.

This last week was long and short at the same time.  It was really hot for a lot of it, but then it was like 50 degrees yesterday and the day before.  And today its like 70 or less.  Also, getting up at seven or seven thirty is not exactly fun seeing as I hate morning.  We went bowling on Wednesday night which was lots of fun.  I have no idea what my score was, but it was fun.  Bowling usually is.  And on Thursday night (yes, I know you aren't supposed to start a sentence with 'and' but I don't care) we went to the Peterson's house and had pizza.  Outside it was SUPER buggy so we went inside.  After a little while we started a game of four men on the couch.  Which went ON, and ON, and ON.  I thinking it ended up being 2.5 hours.

Okay, I have no more that I can think of to say right now.  So all of you who have forgotten about me and my blog, this is all you get.  From now on I will try and blog more frequently.

Dreadfully Busy

WOW.  There are a couple of reasons for that WOW.  First, its been nearly a week since my last post- OOPS!! Sorry people.  Furthermore, I basically did nothing but play Zelda today.  I am really really REALLY liking Twilight Princess.  It is Epic.  Finally, the biggest of the WOWs.

THERES ONLY TWO WEEKS TIL CAMP!!!! AHHHH!!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <---that pretty much sums it up, but I have more to say.  I am super excited, but it doesn't quite seem real.  I know two weeks isn't long, but I haven't even thought about packing (okay, I did a bit, but not really) and it seems like its months away still.  Its almost as if I know its coming but don't believe it and don't want to get my hopes up.  Only I DO believe in fairies...I mean that camp is coming.  Part of it could be that a lot is happening from now til then.  I have a youthgroup event on Wednesday, will hopefully be staying at Riverside on Friday night and helping work there on Saturday.  TJ graduates on Sunday, but hopefully I will NOT have to endure that.  Becca's graduation party is on Memorial Day (which is also Em and James's anniversary congrats woot woot etc).  Next Tuesday I'm going to a cookout bonfire thing.  Next Wednesday I have a YEAH! Board of Directors meeting.  Next Thursday I have a YEAH! event.  Next Saturday is TJ's graduation party/leaving for basic party.  Then I leave the day after that.  Yeah, I'd say I'm pretty busy.  So..in the next 13 days...I have 4 maybe 3 days I will not be doing anything.  Its okay though, I don't mind it.

With all that will be going on, good luck with getting a post out of me.  I will try, I really will.  But I'm not promising anything.  And in case this is my last before camp, I'm warning you that their internet isn't that best and I won't have much time, so you'll be lucky to get one blogpost a week.

Ahh I still can't believe theres only two weeks left.  Less than actually! Thirteen days.  The only downside is that it means only thirteen days to see Jack.  I am going to miss him.  A lot.  Sometimes, when I haven't been home all day, I start to miss him.  And thats after only eight hours.  I have to go approximately 1848 hours without seeing him.  Not sure I'll survive.  I will have Rusty though.  And Tank.  And Odie.  And all the people at camp of course.

{This is me failing at wrapping up the post with a good ending}

Bury Me In Satin

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

            Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
            She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors,
            Life ain't always what you think it ought to be,
            Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

                        The sharp knife of a short life, well
                         I've had, just enough time

And I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little, cold finger, I've
Never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand

          There's a boy here in town who says he'll love me forever,

          Who would have thought forever could be severed by

          The sharp knife of a short life, well,

          I've had, just enough time

 

                        So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls

                        What I never did is done

 

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar

They're worth so much more after I'm a goner

And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'

Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'

 

         If I die young, bury me in satin

         Lay me down on a, bed of roses

         Sink me in the river, at dawn

         Send me away with the words of a love song

 

                       The ballad of a dove, Go with peace and love

                       Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket

                       Save them for a time when you're really gonna need them

 

                                        The sharp knife of a short life, well

                                        I've had, just enough time

 

                                               So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls 

 

So, I really like this song.  Some people don't, and I'm okay with that.  I mostly like it because I like her voice, and its really poetic.  True, its poeticness is slightly morbid and I'm pretty sure its about suicide, but its poetic nonetheless.  Most songs now-a-days (yes, I said 'nowadays') lack that poeticness.  They're just about having a song with really awesome background music and words that rhyme.  Usually those words are something people can relate to, yes, but they are more focused on ryhming the words than the quality of the words.

So yeah.  I just thought I would share that with you.  Even if you disagree.  Because I don't really care if you disagree...no offense.

To listen to and watch "If I Die Young" music video click here.

WAZZUPP??

Blogpost Part One:

WAZZUPP??  Seriously though, what's up?  I wanna know whats up with YOU!!!!!! Are you still there? Have I bored you to death with boring posts you don't care about?


Blogpost Part Two:

Whats up with me?  Lets see.... we'll sort this by catergory:

1) My Blog.  I have added a feature called....well, I don't know what its called.  But its these cool little buttons you can have fun clicking, that say "funny" "didn't like" and "liked".  They are located at the bottom of posts, next to the share options.  Also, for future blogposts you should be seeing eventually:  I'm currently writing the story of my martian adventures.  And on my eighteenth birthday, which is in the summer of 2012, I have a post scheduled that I wrote recently but won't be able to read until then.  Its a letter to myself and you kinda.  So yeah, a little over a year but it'll be here eventually.

2) School.  I'm basically done with school.  I've finished my Physics, finally.  All I have now is Movies as Liturature, and I am on a netflix-oriented schedule for that so who knows when it'll be done.  I finished the rest of my school a while ago.

3) YEAH!  My homeschool group is playing LZRTAG for our next event and I am super excited!!!

4) Summer.   I will be leaving on June 5th for Lake Ellen!!!!!!!!! YAYYYYY!!!!! Can't wait for that!!

5) My Love Life.  Jack is still as cute as ever and there will never ever ever be a cat more adorable than him :)

Blogpost Part Three:

Any good blogs anyone has stumbled upon lately?  Have a blog I'm not subscribed to already? (see mine on the sidebar to the right)  I like reading blogs, its fun, but it seems like all of them out there are just about mothers rambling about how cute their three year old son is or snails or something.  Or good youtube channels.  or books you've read, I could use a good book.  I miss books that I stayed up until 4 AM because I couldn't put it down.

Blogpost Part Four:

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