Change.

I was writing a different post, but then was inspired to write this, and was looking up quotes about how people change (I like quotes, quotes are good).  I came across one that read "Theres no such thing as people changing, you only get to know them better."  I do not believe this too be true.  I've changed a lot in the last year, as I'm sure a lot of people have noticed.  I don't think change is bad, but its hard.

People don't expect you to change.  They expect you to stay exactly how they remember you, how they think they know you.  You get caught, trapped in being someone who you aren't anymore, someone who you used to be.  Sometimes you want to change, but you feel like you will lose people because they don't understand.  You've let yourself become defined as someone, and no one wants to let that definition change.  You aren't even sure if you CAN change it.

Or you change and people think something is wrong.  I used to be really talkitive, hyper, energetic.  Now I talk less.  Its not that I'm always sad, or down, or thinking really hard about some overwhelming obstacle in my life.  Sometimes, I'm sure that is a reason.  Sometimes, I'm just in a bad mood.  A lot of the time, I honestly just don't have anything to say.  I don't mind sitting and listening to other people talk (unless its morning, I'm still not a morning conversationalist).  Yet people assume that if I'm not talking or acting in an outgoing manner (I'm sure theres a word for that...I'm trying to get around using the word obnoxious because thats not quite what I'm looking for...) that there is something wrong with me.  Some assume, others ask.  I usually tell them I'm fine, and a lot of the time, I am.

Sometimes, people really are just fine.  A lot of people will ask, and they get the answer of "I'm fine" so they either ask again, or they just nod but don't believe it.  Which is okay, because sometimes people aren't fine.  But if they don't want to talk about it, its okay.  Maybe they just don't want to talk to YOU about it, or they aren't ready to.

Another quote for you, since I've been looking at them on and off while writing this.

 "I don't know that love changes.  People change.  Circumstances change."